Six

What's hot? Tomorrow is the Merdeka Day and two of my colleagues are getting married. One is in this afternoon and another one will be on the day after our independence day. So, congratulations to Lakshmi, Malaysia & Nor Aminah!

A lot of people have been asking me with the same one (I don't know how to label it) question. Bila nak kahwin? And the same answers I've been using for the past few years. Either Insya-Allah or Belum masuk usia kahwin Rasulullah lagi.

Don't be surprised, among my circle of friends, I could say that I'm the one who prefer to marry at the young age. By my age now, my mother has already a 3-year-old son and a 6-months daughter. And if you've been listening to me very closely over the past few years, maybe you can recall my favorite number for my children 'collection'. I even have prepared their names and what kind of education that will suit them. And I told this to my mum, my best friends and some of my classmates. Until my mum said I should stop talking about this issue because it made her scared.

After started working, then I realized that there is a long list; what you need to do, what you need to have before bringing in other people's daughter. And the list can be much longer to the eldest in the family like me - with 3 younger sisters and 2 younger brothers.

Last April, my best pal asked me why I love to have such a big family. Unfortunately, I failed to answer it straightaway. This morning while happily cleaning myself in the bathroom, I realized that I'm a selfish person. I might be using my further anak to fulfilling my unachievable dreams. That's why I've been planning all of these, if not crappy, scary ideas for the past few years. At the moment, while typing this journal, I'm actually laughing at myself - how silly I could be sometimes.

For those who is getting married sooner or later, Selamat Pengantin Baru. And Selamat Hari Merdeka to all of you. Don't forget to memorize the lyric of Negaraku!